Monday, January 10, 2011

Three weeks later, four to go...

So, it's three weeks after the movers came and four weeks before we get on a plane to Seattle. I'm sitting on my futon in the middle of my mother-in-law's living room. These past three weeks have been tiring. I did Christmas. I did New Year's. I've had two sick kids on my hands, one week apart. I still have boxes of stuff that I'm getting rid of.

The oldest finally goes back to school tomorrow after winter break. I start work again tomorrow and for the next 3 weeks. I have one foot in two worlds. My husband google chats us everyday after work. He is lonely and not enjoying being single in the condo we have rented in Seattle. I want to be there with him, but I don't want to give up my job and life here. But right now I have half-a-life. I don't have my own kitchen, or computer, or even a room.

I'm stuck in grass-greener mode. My own space and life in Seattle seem greener, but I know I will be hating my return to full-time SAHM status. I will want my life in Japan back. I will suffer from reverse culture shock. I will struggle to find my voice and purpose again. And I will blog about it all, but very infrequently.